Dear reader,
在阅读以下文章前，请搜寻这首歌: Dark Coffee by Daniela Andrade
恩，然后边听这歌边读下去吧。
Dark Coffee?
曾经很迷恋，很喜欢它纯粹的味道。
然后呢，然后碰到了一些很不美好的事情，
就开始抗拒了。
怕了，怕那种赤裸的苦。
恩。还是加了奶的咖啡好些。
那时侯，
从害怕变成失望，失望中突然看见希望，然后，再次失望。
所幸，自己内心那巨大的倔强，
不让自己感到绝望。
恩 还没到绝望。
这几天睡不好。
对那件事的不安又降临了。
是因为害怕面对吧
就快要到了
就在两个星期后
是怕看见自己最不想看到的结果吧。
梦了很多。
梦见了中学时，朋友猛传，
诗惠的血是蓝色的，
所以才不能晒太阳。
=.= （这事貌似是真的发生过，不是只是梦吧。有时真的觉得你们很瞎）
梦见了自己坐在咖啡厅的角落，
听着这首歌。
紧接就梦见你正忙着工作，
有点疲惫。
背景竟然还有这歌在播放着 =.-
恩，我奉上了一杯咖啡
然后呆在你身边，
额。倒是我们当时的对话我已经记不起了。
或许是: 迷糊，你弄的咖啡还不错哦！
噗，自high
说真的这一切还真的莫名其妙。
恩 毕竟是梦嘛。
醒来时，看看时间，
也才早上五点。
想再睡回 又睡不着了。
总觉得今晚又会发很多梦
梦到想记住的就跑来这儿写吧。
这blog荒废了那么久
近期写了又好像重新找回那种想打下心情的热情了
~ ~ ~
Dark coffee，仍然在播放着。
是因为自己太爱听带着遗憾的曲风
所以心情才会容易沉重；
还是因为自己心情太容易沉重，
所以才爱听带着遗憾的曲风？
诶 算了，
这根本是鸡和蛋哪个先存在的争执一样，
永远不会有答案。
暂时停止这些想法。
恩 喝杯咖啡去。
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
家伙 a.k.a 棉花糖
看到了题目
你知道我在说你的吧 棉花糖 =)
如果非得用两个字来形容我们
那*奇妙*真的很适合不过。
为什么？
诶...我有说过啊
在几年前，就决定要好好认识你的我
现在，还真的实现了。O.O
第一次见面的日期 你记得吗？
我记得哦。那算是还蛮好记的日期。
什么?! 你忘了...呜呜
*迷糊汪躲到角落舔伤*
为什么会突然写这篇文
我也不懂
是想好好记载这种心情 这种感觉吧。
什么感觉？诶...你还要我再重复说明吗
别了。近期内已经送给你那么多炸弹。
怕你又再撑不住。><
其实说真的 有点愧疚
记得我说过 不管多久以后
只要你说你难过
我一定会跟你说 “有我在”吗
可是仔细想想
其实说这句话更多的人
反而是你。
昨晚听到你的语音讯息里说着 *你一直在*时
我是真的 真的 泪水溃了堤。
你说我哭点和笑点都很低
是吗？
不是啊 只是每个人的生命中
都会有个很容易触动你心弦的人， 对吧。
对，那个人是你。
谢谢你，
棉花糖般的声音，
如此暖心。
想跟你说，
有好多话想跟你说。
希望你能够对自己自信一点。
希望你能够好好爱着自己。
希望你能够幸福快乐。
希望你能够知道，其实你很美好。
“对你而言 我是个怎样的存在？”
你在通电话时说有什么问题想问你时
其实脑海里就浮现了这个问题
可是 不知怎的 我说不出口
可能是太过紧张;
可能也是一方面在担心你会不知道怎样去回答。
认识你之后才发现
有些答案真的不那么重要了。
只是知道能够陪着你就好。
不要说我傻。
我本来就是傻啊 XD
好啦，别说我傻，
因为...
...
因为陪着你
我很幸福。
你知道我在说你的吧 棉花糖 =)
如果非得用两个字来形容我们
那*奇妙*真的很适合不过。
为什么？
诶...我有说过啊
在几年前，就决定要好好认识你的我
现在，还真的实现了。O.O
第一次见面的日期 你记得吗？
我记得哦。那算是还蛮好记的日期。
什么?! 你忘了...呜呜
*迷糊汪躲到角落舔伤*
为什么会突然写这篇文
我也不懂
是想好好记载这种心情 这种感觉吧。
什么感觉？诶...你还要我再重复说明吗
别了。近期内已经送给你那么多炸弹。
怕你又再撑不住。><
其实说真的 有点愧疚
记得我说过 不管多久以后
只要你说你难过
我一定会跟你说 “有我在”吗
可是仔细想想
其实说这句话更多的人
反而是你。
昨晚听到你的语音讯息里说着 *你一直在*时
我是真的 真的 泪水溃了堤。
你说我哭点和笑点都很低
是吗？
不是啊 只是每个人的生命中
都会有个很容易触动你心弦的人， 对吧。
对，那个人是你。
谢谢你，
棉花糖般的声音，
如此暖心。
有好多话想跟你说。
希望你能够对自己自信一点。
希望你能够好好爱着自己。
希望你能够幸福快乐。
希望你能够知道，其实你很美好。
“对你而言 我是个怎样的存在？”
你在通电话时说有什么问题想问你时
其实脑海里就浮现了这个问题
可是 不知怎的 我说不出口
可能是太过紧张;
可能也是一方面在担心你会不知道怎样去回答。
认识你之后才发现
有些答案真的不那么重要了。
只是知道能够陪着你就好。
不要说我傻。
我本来就是傻啊 XD
好啦，别说我傻，
因为...
...
因为陪着你
我很幸福。
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
我懒得
*我懒得...*
很爱对你说这个三个字。
"快去 快去听这首歌。"
"额...不要啦...我懒得。 "
"诶...来找我啊...每次都是我走路来找你 哼！”
“额...不要啦...我懒得。”
“喂...载我出去兜兜风！”
“哦...不要啦...我懒得..."
真的够了 诗惠。
你现在还会再说你懒得吗？
为什么总要发生了一些事 才会反省。
是不是说 每个人都会有些时候
觉得某些人对你的好
是理所当然。
我该做些什么 拜托告诉我
我该做些什么才能帮到你
最好的朋友。
哈 可笑！
你，配吗？骆诗惠。
才发觉昨晚的泪水
其实不仅仅是因为担心
还有 懊悔 和 内疚。
很爱对你说这个三个字。
"快去 快去听这首歌。"
"额...不要啦...我懒得。 "
"诶...来找我啊...每次都是我走路来找你 哼！”
“额...不要啦...我懒得。”
“喂...载我出去兜兜风！”
“哦...不要啦...我懒得..."
真的够了 诗惠。
你现在还会再说你懒得吗？
为什么总要发生了一些事 才会反省。
是不是说 每个人都会有些时候
觉得某些人对你的好
是理所当然。
我该做些什么 拜托告诉我
我该做些什么才能帮到你
最好的朋友。
哈 可笑！
你，配吗？骆诗惠。
才发觉昨晚的泪水
其实不仅仅是因为担心
还有 懊悔 和 内疚。
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
New Life. New Me.
Dear beloved viewers,
Lots of things happened within this year. N I'm so amazed how I've
grown. Tumblr changed part of me. Ya know. It feels freakin awesome where u get to c
all the lovely pictures and reading all those awesome quotes. Truly inspiring. Login
tumblr every day, keeps the psychiatrist away. This is coming from meh. =.=
Well on the other hand. I'm planning to do something special. mayb i should share
some inspiring pictures and videos here. since my blog looks truly dull. Well maybe
video of my own talking bout my point of views of certain topics or maybe juz craps.
For the sake of fun. the best part is! I have only 2 followers=.= which means I hav the
ultimate freedom to make dumb shit vids whenever i want to. Hell yea. LOL. K. Mayb
u guys can give me some ideas bout what i can talk bout for my 1st vid. I'm guessing i'll
hav no reply on this. haha.
Let's talk bout ma uni life. A 1st year 2nd sem student. Having fun over thr? Hell no.
Uni's life sucks! Face it Suckers. I love econs. Both macro n micro seems
interesting. But my lecturer is so, so boooooring. Dude when I make complaints,
there's truly something wrong bout this person. A slide, bout 3 sentences, he can brag
bout 30 minutes. A simple graph, it takes him freaking 30-45 minutes to stop
explaining. Sometimes i felt so sorry for him cuz he's juz bein really responsible.
Ohmagawd. I'm somehow a lil' evil. I met some friends. Finally. I'm sayin the type
where u stick together for assignments and also the FUN. It's very common where u
get to meet those hi-bye friends. After u greet and the next seconds u'll b like: What's
her name again? damn it. Hah.
Imma introduce some of ma new awesome friends over here. No1. Miss J. She's a
total sweatheart at 1st. She only talks nice things to you. No complaints. V used to be
hardly talking to each other except for assignments. Well after a few months, knowing
her in depth. She's turns to be an awesome joker. With those meanie n fun lil'
comments bout ppl. e.g. My econs teacher. She has a cute bf and a damn wealthy
family. She's the easy going type which i found similar in me. No2. Miss M. She's a
taiwanese. Works hard. 100% serious in all her works. Funny n cute. I don't really get
to know her yet. But there's still plenty of time to get to know her.i need to. Since im
counting on her to bring me to taipei and introduce all the awesome food over there.
Hehe. Juz saying. N there's Mr. X and Ms. A. Well, not that close. but at least i've got
their number. =) Time is all v need to build the frienship bond.
Not to forget. My Bez buddy in Sunway area. Emi. She's my ex-primary-classmate. My
ex-secondary-classmate. My current course mate and my roommate. I've known her
for like 10 years. Awesome right? It's awesome in a way that v're able to share lotz of
funny jokes and gossips since we have many mutual friends. N there's one more
awesome thing bout her, she's an actress. Go check out her movie. *The Wedding
Diary* Well. Another awesome friend would be Ahilla. I've known her since i was in
KDU. I feel really comfortable to hang out with her. She's an aweosome listener and
advisor. N she's so fun to hang out with. I do keep some of her big secrets. Which in
the sense I'm quite honoured. =D N there's Yueyi. A girl i known for like, nine years. V
met in a tuition class when we were like 9? Lost contact after that.Suprisingly. V met
again in aonther tuition class when we were 15. N now she's here in sunway with us.
How cool is that? I'm amazed. She's caring, the fun type, and kind. V get the question
i.e. What's for lunch/dinner from her, like basically everyday. O.O Hah. N evelyn the
awesome girl. That girl loves Nickhun. Juz like I Do. great person to hang out with.
Fashionita. Huge fan of medi and pedicure. Super Freakin tall and fair and skinny!
OMG. Im jealous. LOL.
That's all ppl. I'll be back. The bez part is coming soon. X)
Lots of things happened within this year. N I'm so amazed how I've
grown. Tumblr changed part of me. Ya know. It feels freakin awesome where u get to c
all the lovely pictures and reading all those awesome quotes. Truly inspiring. Login
tumblr every day, keeps the psychiatrist away. This is coming from meh. =.=
Well on the other hand. I'm planning to do something special. mayb i should share
some inspiring pictures and videos here. since my blog looks truly dull. Well maybe
video of my own talking bout my point of views of certain topics or maybe juz craps.
For the sake of fun. the best part is! I have only 2 followers=.= which means I hav the
ultimate freedom to make dumb shit vids whenever i want to. Hell yea. LOL. K. Mayb
u guys can give me some ideas bout what i can talk bout for my 1st vid. I'm guessing i'll
hav no reply on this. haha.
Let's talk bout ma uni life. A 1st year 2nd sem student. Having fun over thr? Hell no.
Uni's life sucks! Face it Suckers. I love econs. Both macro n micro seems
interesting. But my lecturer is so, so boooooring. Dude when I make complaints,
there's truly something wrong bout this person. A slide, bout 3 sentences, he can brag
bout 30 minutes. A simple graph, it takes him freaking 30-45 minutes to stop
explaining. Sometimes i felt so sorry for him cuz he's juz bein really responsible.
Ohmagawd. I'm somehow a lil' evil. I met some friends. Finally. I'm sayin the type
where u stick together for assignments and also the FUN. It's very common where u
get to meet those hi-bye friends. After u greet and the next seconds u'll b like: What's
her name again? damn it. Hah.
Imma introduce some of ma new awesome friends over here. No1. Miss J. She's a
total sweatheart at 1st. She only talks nice things to you. No complaints. V used to be
hardly talking to each other except for assignments. Well after a few months, knowing
her in depth. She's turns to be an awesome joker. With those meanie n fun lil'
comments bout ppl. e.g. My econs teacher. She has a cute bf and a damn wealthy
family. She's the easy going type which i found similar in me. No2. Miss M. She's a
taiwanese. Works hard. 100% serious in all her works. Funny n cute. I don't really get
to know her yet. But there's still plenty of time to get to know her.i need to. Since im
counting on her to bring me to taipei and introduce all the awesome food over there.
Hehe. Juz saying. N there's Mr. X and Ms. A. Well, not that close. but at least i've got
their number. =) Time is all v need to build the frienship bond.
Not to forget. My Bez buddy in Sunway area. Emi. She's my ex-primary-classmate. My
ex-secondary-classmate. My current course mate and my roommate. I've known her
for like 10 years. Awesome right? It's awesome in a way that v're able to share lotz of
funny jokes and gossips since we have many mutual friends. N there's one more
awesome thing bout her, she's an actress. Go check out her movie. *The Wedding
Diary* Well. Another awesome friend would be Ahilla. I've known her since i was in
KDU. I feel really comfortable to hang out with her. She's an aweosome listener and
advisor. N she's so fun to hang out with. I do keep some of her big secrets. Which in
the sense I'm quite honoured. =D N there's Yueyi. A girl i known for like, nine years. V
met in a tuition class when we were like 9? Lost contact after that.Suprisingly. V met
again in aonther tuition class when we were 15. N now she's here in sunway with us.
How cool is that? I'm amazed. She's caring, the fun type, and kind. V get the question
i.e. What's for lunch/dinner from her, like basically everyday. O.O Hah. N evelyn the
awesome girl. That girl loves Nickhun. Juz like I Do. great person to hang out with.
Fashionita. Huge fan of medi and pedicure. Super Freakin tall and fair and skinny!
OMG. Im jealous. LOL.
That's all ppl. I'll be back. The bez part is coming soon. X)
Friday, March 9, 2012
50 random facts bout me (Part 2)
26. I just fuckin hate it for the fact that I always suffer from food poisoning.
27. Feel real depress when I saw people suffers from different kinds of disease. And people around them expect the sick person to be optimistic ALL THE TIME.
28. I felt sorry for the rest of my lifetime.Cuz I promised someone forever. But somehow it doesn't work out that way.
29. I, too have a voice, for the invisible children. If you have no idea what I'm talking about. Please google it up.
30. Do me a favor. Make.Kony.Famous. Spread the words. He Does Not Have A Heart. (Google it up if u don't hav a clue)
31. I love my parents. Yes, we argue and sometimes they said mean things that they didnt really mean to, I just know that they love me. Always will.
32. I love ma baby. Coffee. <3
33. We siblings fight and argue, like all the time. And this just make the three of us even closer than before. LOL.
34. Never once. Never ever fail to drown whenever I look into your eyes.
35. I hate rainy days. I fuckin' hate the fact that I can't stop loving the rain that makes me go crazy to think about the pain that i've been through.
36. I love blue. It makes me calm.
37. Can never stop loving music. Beautiful melodies hit me every single time.
38. I love to cuddle with ma teddyyy. LOL
39. I wanna go around the world. To know more about the planet I'm living on.
40. Charity is a must in my life. What's the point of having all these wealth if u dun have the chance to share it? What's the point of breathing if u dun hav a chance to offer help?
41. I love sports. Don't u dare relate this fact with my body shape! LOL. Bet u did.
42. I'm thinking a number between 1 to 10..... 7! u got that right. XD
43. I hate it when people relate the way I dress up myself with my sexuality. =.= Shusshhh, so what's wrong If I'm really gay,(lesbian = gay. Learn this fact. Lots of ppl dunno LOL) It's not like gayness is goin to kill u. =.=
44. I wanna go to Tibet so badly. Mission that should definitely be accomplished in future.
45. Singing makes me go. yea. Feelin' so fly.
46. Yes I drink. I don't smoke.
47. Not a shopoholic. Coffeeholic.
48. The sea and the sky is like the best combination that I could think of nature. Probably because it's blue and too freakin' beautiful.
49. I love the way u say ma name. Brighten up my day. Works all the time. =)
50. I love my friends. I love the ones that educates me(teachers). I love my aunts that take good care of me. I love my belief>>Buddism. I love my dimples. LOL. I love my pets. I love my bro n my sis. I love my cousins. I love my grandparents. I love my parents. I, love you. ;)
Woahhhhh. Finally, I'm done.
50 random things bout me. Love me if u will. Hate me would be fine though.
Peace out.
27. Feel real depress when I saw people suffers from different kinds of disease. And people around them expect the sick person to be optimistic ALL THE TIME.
28. I felt sorry for the rest of my lifetime.Cuz I promised someone forever. But somehow it doesn't work out that way.
29. I, too have a voice, for the invisible children. If you have no idea what I'm talking about. Please google it up.
30. Do me a favor. Make.Kony.Famous. Spread the words. He Does Not Have A Heart. (Google it up if u don't hav a clue)
31. I love my parents. Yes, we argue and sometimes they said mean things that they didnt really mean to, I just know that they love me. Always will.
32. I love ma baby. Coffee. <3
33. We siblings fight and argue, like all the time. And this just make the three of us even closer than before. LOL.
34. Never once. Never ever fail to drown whenever I look into your eyes.
35. I hate rainy days. I fuckin' hate the fact that I can't stop loving the rain that makes me go crazy to think about the pain that i've been through.
36. I love blue. It makes me calm.
37. Can never stop loving music. Beautiful melodies hit me every single time.
38. I love to cuddle with ma teddyyy. LOL
39. I wanna go around the world. To know more about the planet I'm living on.
40. Charity is a must in my life. What's the point of having all these wealth if u dun have the chance to share it? What's the point of breathing if u dun hav a chance to offer help?
41. I love sports. Don't u dare relate this fact with my body shape! LOL. Bet u did.
42. I'm thinking a number between 1 to 10..... 7! u got that right. XD
43. I hate it when people relate the way I dress up myself with my sexuality. =.= Shusshhh, so what's wrong If I'm really gay,(lesbian = gay. Learn this fact. Lots of ppl dunno LOL) It's not like gayness is goin to kill u. =.=
44. I wanna go to Tibet so badly. Mission that should definitely be accomplished in future.
45. Singing makes me go. yea. Feelin' so fly.
46. Yes I drink. I don't smoke.
47. Not a shopoholic. Coffeeholic.
48. The sea and the sky is like the best combination that I could think of nature. Probably because it's blue and too freakin' beautiful.
49. I love the way u say ma name. Brighten up my day. Works all the time. =)
50. I love my friends. I love the ones that educates me(teachers). I love my aunts that take good care of me. I love my belief>>Buddism. I love my dimples. LOL. I love my pets. I love my bro n my sis. I love my cousins. I love my grandparents. I love my parents. I, love you. ;)
Woahhhhh. Finally, I'm done.
50 random things bout me. Love me if u will. Hate me would be fine though.
Peace out.
50 random facts bout me (Part 1)
1. Afraid of height.
2. I prefer hugs more than kisses.
3. True animal lover.
4. When it comes to love, I never know what are the right things to do.
5. I'm trying real hard to be myself.
6. Beautiful eyes never fail to get my attention.
7. I used to think that Hogwarts is real.
8. I can't believe that Harry Potter movie series actually ended. :'(
9. I've learn that u should never, ever take life as granted.
10. Watches and sunglasses, Just. Can't. Stop. Loving. Them.
11. I Loved you. I really did.
12. And though the clock never stops ticking, u'll ALWAYS have a place in my heart.
13. Don't u know? I've built a home for you in my heart. :)
14. Sometimes people think that I can be fooled easily. In fact, they just don't know that I'm acting like a fool so that I'll never lose anyone that I love.
15. "Bein selfish to others is bein good to yourslef." Certainly a tough task for me.
16. "I love you, Juz Fuckin' Deal With It." Saw this on the internet makes me go literally LOL.
17. *Wake up in the morning. Feeling you. "Good Morning." And then sealed it with a kiss. * Gawd. Please make this come true. Somehow, I'll find someone. I bet I will. :)
18. Gratitude saves a broken heart. Well said, my dearest Jenna. :)
19. I hate it when people say they do care for you but they don't.
20. I wanna live in Disneyland!
21. Sometimes I need to act like I don't care to avoid myself getting hurt.
22. White. Black. Straight. Gay. Bi. For me, it doesn't matter at all. All it matters is that u have a heart.
23. One of my biggest wish is that I will always have a place in your heart.
24. Most beautiful words that i've heard. Not "ILY". Turns out to be "I'm Here For You. "
25. How pretty would it be if you're willing to sit right by my side and listen to all the beautiful songs that I know you would love.
2. I prefer hugs more than kisses.
3. True animal lover.
4. When it comes to love, I never know what are the right things to do.
5. I'm trying real hard to be myself.
6. Beautiful eyes never fail to get my attention.
7. I used to think that Hogwarts is real.
8. I can't believe that Harry Potter movie series actually ended. :'(
9. I've learn that u should never, ever take life as granted.
10. Watches and sunglasses, Just. Can't. Stop. Loving. Them.
11. I Loved you. I really did.
12. And though the clock never stops ticking, u'll ALWAYS have a place in my heart.
13. Don't u know? I've built a home for you in my heart. :)
14. Sometimes people think that I can be fooled easily. In fact, they just don't know that I'm acting like a fool so that I'll never lose anyone that I love.
15. "Bein selfish to others is bein good to yourslef." Certainly a tough task for me.
16. "I love you, Juz Fuckin' Deal With It." Saw this on the internet makes me go literally LOL.
17. *Wake up in the morning. Feeling you. "Good Morning." And then sealed it with a kiss. * Gawd. Please make this come true. Somehow, I'll find someone. I bet I will. :)
18. Gratitude saves a broken heart. Well said, my dearest Jenna. :)
19. I hate it when people say they do care for you but they don't.
20. I wanna live in Disneyland!
21. Sometimes I need to act like I don't care to avoid myself getting hurt.
22. White. Black. Straight. Gay. Bi. For me, it doesn't matter at all. All it matters is that u have a heart.
23. One of my biggest wish is that I will always have a place in your heart.
24. Most beautiful words that i've heard. Not "ILY". Turns out to be "I'm Here For You. "
25. How pretty would it be if you're willing to sit right by my side and listen to all the beautiful songs that I know you would love.
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