Friday, March 9, 2012

50 random facts bout me (Part 2)

26. I just fuckin hate it for the fact that I always suffer from food poisoning.

27. Feel real depress when I saw people suffers from different kinds of disease. And people around them expect the sick person to be optimistic ALL THE TIME.

28. I felt sorry for the rest of my lifetime.Cuz I promised someone forever. But somehow it doesn't work out that way.

29. I, too have a voice, for the invisible children. If you have no idea what I'm talking about. Please google it up.

30. Do me a favor. Make.Kony.Famous. Spread the words. He Does Not Have A Heart. (Google it up if u don't hav a clue)

31. I love my parents. Yes, we argue and sometimes they said mean things that they didnt really mean to, I just know that they love me. Always will.

32. I love ma baby. Coffee. <3

33. We siblings fight and argue, like all the time. And this just make the three of us even closer than before. LOL.

34. Never once. Never ever fail to drown whenever I look into your eyes.

35. I hate rainy days. I fuckin' hate the fact that I can't stop loving the rain that makes me go crazy to think about the pain that i've been through.

36. I love blue. It makes me calm.

37. Can never stop loving music. Beautiful melodies hit me every single time.

38. I love to cuddle with ma teddyyy. LOL

39. I wanna go around the world. To know more about the planet I'm living on.

40. Charity is a must in my life. What's the point of having all these wealth if u dun have the chance to share it? What's the point of breathing if u dun hav a chance to offer help?

41. I love sports. Don't u dare relate this fact with my body shape! LOL. Bet u did.

42. I'm thinking a number between 1 to 10..... 7! u got that right. XD

43. I hate it when people relate the way I dress up myself with my sexuality. =.= Shusshhh, so what's wrong If I'm really gay,(lesbian = gay. Learn this fact. Lots of ppl dunno LOL) It's not like gayness is goin to kill u. =.=

44. I wanna go to Tibet so badly. Mission that should definitely be accomplished in future.

45. Singing makes me go. yea. Feelin' so fly.

46. Yes I drink. I don't smoke.

47. Not a shopoholic. Coffeeholic.

48. The sea and the sky is like the best combination that I could think of nature. Probably because it's blue and too freakin' beautiful.

49. I love the way u say ma name. Brighten up my day. Works all the time. =)

50. I love my friends. I love the ones that educates me(teachers). I love my aunts that take good care of me. I love my belief>>Buddism. I love my dimples. LOL. I love my pets. I love my bro n my sis. I love my cousins. I love my grandparents. I love my parents. I, love you. ;)

Woahhhhh. Finally, I'm done.
50 random things bout me. Love me if u will. Hate me would be fine though.
Peace out.

50 random facts bout me (Part 1)

1. Afraid of height.

2. I prefer hugs more than kisses.

3. True animal lover.

4. When it comes to love, I never know what are the right things to do.

5. I'm trying real hard to be myself.

6. Beautiful eyes never fail to get my attention.

7. I used to think that Hogwarts is real.

8. I can't believe that Harry Potter movie series actually ended. :'(

9. I've learn that u should never, ever take life as granted.

10. Watches and sunglasses, Just. Can't. Stop. Loving. Them.

11. I Loved you. I really did.

12. And though the clock never stops ticking, u'll ALWAYS have a place in my heart.

13. Don't u know? I've built a home for you in my heart. :)

14. Sometimes people think that I can be fooled easily. In fact, they just don't know that I'm acting like a fool so that I'll never lose anyone that I love.

15. "Bein selfish to others is bein good to yourslef." Certainly a tough task for me.

16. "I love you, Juz Fuckin' Deal With It." Saw this on the internet makes me go literally LOL.

17. *Wake up in the morning. Feeling you. "Good Morning." And then sealed it with a kiss. * Gawd. Please make this come true. Somehow, I'll find someone. I bet I will. :)

18. Gratitude saves a broken heart. Well said, my dearest Jenna. :)

19. I hate it when people say they do care for you but they don't.

20. I wanna live in Disneyland!

21. Sometimes I need to act like I don't care to avoid myself getting hurt.

22. White. Black. Straight. Gay. Bi. For me, it doesn't matter at all. All it matters is that u have a heart.

23. One of my biggest wish is that I will always have a place in your heart.

24. Most beautiful words that i've heard. Not "ILY". Turns out to be "I'm Here For You. "

25. How pretty would it be if you're willing to sit right by my side and listen to all the beautiful songs that I know you would love.

Monday, February 13, 2012

香格里拉

我喜欢一个人的感觉。很喜欢,好喜欢。

不懂是不是基因作怪,

我不曾懂得如何在别人的面前诠释我的情绪。

最近有人对我说:你是自闭症患者吗?或许。

我喜欢一个人窝在一个角落,

听着一首又一首我爱上的音乐。

这辈子,我会不会找到一个真正懂我的人,陪伴我。

有谁能够安静的坐在我身边,听完所有我最爱的旋律。

当发觉我不懂如何和朋友面对面谈心时,

我会用不同的方法掩饰。

笑容,活跃的举动,等 等。

真诚的希望你们都不会从我眼中看出我的迷惑,我的脆弱。

其实我好喜欢好喜欢,好喜欢你,

但我比较喜欢这样悄悄地想念你。

这样的距离,对谁都好。=)

从很久之前我就不懂如何面对你,对不起。

是时间的缘故吗,我开始讨厌在你面前的自己,

显得那么的无所谓.

现在的我,忘了如何处理人与人之间的相处。

香格里拉,心灵的净土,

我可不可以牵着你的手?去追寻。

情人节快乐。我最亲爱的你。

Friday, February 3, 2012

谈歌

我是那种只要一天没听到歌,就会很落寞很茫然的人。

其实真的很感谢这世界所有好歌,

这是一种很美丽的动力。

我需要动力,毕竟我总需要好好的活着。

听歌之所以那么美好,只因为它能带我抽离现实,

用心聆听音乐,再从另一个角度,看这个世界。

然而,当你听见歌词里的意义,与你的人生吻合,

难过虽难过,但难过时听这样的歌,

反而能够洗涤心灵,

甚至或许你会好好放肆的哭一场,之后就擦干眼泪,继续前进。

“哭过就好了,痛都会走的,记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的..."

*摘自梁文音<哭过就好了>*

很喜欢文音歌里有的层次,懂得带出情绪,

不会过多,不会太少。而且,歌声很有画面感。

单凭这点,已经打败了太多现今的歌手。

《外面的世界》,另一首另我很迷恋的歌。

喜欢莫文蔚的版本,

优美不做作,清新,听了没有负担。

悄悄的,在深夜里流泪,

没有歇斯底里,只是安静的释放着一些负面的情绪。

其实这样很幸福。

张悬,一个很难得的女创作歌手,

外表清纯,非主流爱好者。

在昏灰的灯光下,刷着自己的吉他,

用最温柔的声音唱出自己爱的歌。

这种帅气的气质,很迷人。

〈张三的歌>,张悬版本,有空去听听。

一个女孩能把这首歌唱得那么沧桑,

实力这回事就不必多说明。

至于蔡健雅,便是我学吉他最大的启发,

(当然另一个影响我的是张悬。XD)

*顺便在这推荐她的新专辑,说到爱。

很完整,很感人,很帅气,很有启发性,爆好听。*

是的,我开始学吉他了,

每天练习,从错误中学习,刷下和旋,

听见由自己弹出的旋律,我真的很满足。

其实,练到手指头都损了,

没关系,这是努力的证明,甚至心中暗喜,

真的很难得我会那么努力。

我想只有音乐对我来说才有这样的魔力。=)

说到魔力嘛,想起三只,我是指S.H.E啦。

是的,她们是我的魔力,搞笑无厘头却真诚,

很爱她们,因为她们的陪伴,

让我心在这十年来都比较踏实。

对于她们的歌我最爱的歌,我的确不懂得如何选择,

毕竟她们的每首歌伴我走过人生的各种阶段。=D

最后送上一首歌,给所有像我一样爱上孤独的人。

陈绮贞〈太多〉。

记得,不能喜欢孤独太多,别和世界完全脱节,

毕竟我们是活在这个世界上的人。

其实,我也还在学习。加油。

Thursday, December 29, 2011

诗惠能

我是这很没个性的人,总是尽量迎脸笑人,尽量对大家好。

被人说我很假,只会懂得讨好别人。

不懂我为什么会这个样子的话,请别来伤害我。拜托了。

我比谁都讨厌,厌恶争吵,喜欢平静。

我是真的,真的,真的很讨厌。

有时我的成全,我的忍让,我的道歉,

不是因为我错,是因为我不像失去身边的人。

这种心里永远是自己第一,别人第二的人,永远都不会懂。

有时候我真的真的很难过,为什么我的忍让会被人当是一堆烂泥般践踏。

请,留给我,我仅有的一点自尊。

不被珍惜,是一件很受伤的事情。

还说我的朋友,哈,好可笑。

我很累,每天害怕这害怕那,害怕失去感到很累。

我是孬种,从来不敢提起勇气为自己争取被夺走的尊严。

是我幼稚吧。总以为身边的人都真诚。

诗惠,你何时才能长大,真正学会看见这世界的虚假?

算了,我相信我们,都会更好的。

这世界的美好, 家人好友心深处的那个人,往往能够打败所有的不美好。

记忆中有你的美好,我就能很好。

加油,诗惠能。

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

体会

好久没上来这里写下自己的心情了。

其实也没为什么,只是,每当一上到这儿,就代表自己的心已无法承受某种心情。

这次隔了那么久才再这贴下心情,证明我的心脏再强了一些。 *偷偷为自己鼓掌。呵*

上大学的生活是怎么个样?忙碌又平淡,平淡又参杂着忙碌。倒也没什么新鲜事。

(大学并不是想象中的好玩)。

倒是,在宿舍漆黑的深夜里,延续了一种更深的思念。

还记得第一个在宿舍的夜晚,在很黑很黑的房间里,

在忍无可忍的情况下,我躲在枕头底下,留了好多好多无声的泪。

我不懂为什么,这是第一次,我那么那么的想念家。

我想人就是那么的可笑吧,只有在放开的时候,才会学会更加珍惜。

“如果,你们都不会长大多好。”

回想起妈在机场说的话,我的泪,止不住。

其实,时光带走的何止岁月,还带走很多当初最单纯的幸福。

今年也是第一次没在家人身边度过生日。

10102011,12时正,我在心里对自己说声生日快乐,

我许下了愿。我的愿望还是关于你。

是的,在那个夜,我很想念你,以及家人。

没有蜡烛,没有最渴望的陪伴,我还是一样度过了。

简简单单的爱过,谢谢你让我幸福过。

爱,我把它好好的守着。

我会好好的。

好好的呼吸,

好好的吃饭,

好好的读书,

好好的奋斗,

好好的生活,

然后,

才有资格,好好的思念。

最后,我把我的心好好的填满,

回忆,思念,爱,真诚,热忱,

会填满我的心。

堆积而成一个,更有资格活着的一个人。

允许我,把我生命中的每个你们,

犹如一片片的拼图,慢慢的拼凑成一幅最美丽的画。

这世上最美好的,是能够感受到自己的心还跳着,感受自己还在很真诚的活着。

不是吗?

总有一天我有机会飞往我的梦想了,

这幅画会伴随着我,那时在高空中的我会微笑着,

因为这一切都真真切切的发生过。

会很美丽,有回忆陪伴的人生。

对于我的体会,你们是否,也有所体会? =)


Monday, May 16, 2011

Fly Away

感谢芷妍跟我提起了CORRINNE MAY,让我听见了一首很感人的作品,fly away.

这首你们如果不去听听,会是很大的损失。

一开始我以为会是情歌,仔细听下去,才感觉不像情歌,

听到了其中一句,"as a child, she was my world"

深深的吸引了我,于是google了歌词,

然后一面看歌词,一面听着。

视线迅速模糊,眼眶都被挤得很满。

歌词,如下,


When will you be home?" she asks

as we watch the planes take off

We both know we have no clear answer

to where my dreams may lead

She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled

As a child, she was my world
 
看到这里,我想你应该懂,这,是一首写给妈妈的歌。

*And now to let me go, I know she bleeds*

从这句开始,情绪开始失控。

and yet she says to me:

妈妈说:“

"You can fly so high

Keep your gaze upon the sky

I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart

*I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away*”

当妈把手松开了,其实,心如刀割。

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and

Silver-painted hair

Daddy called one evening saying

"We need you. Please come back"

When I saw her laying in her bed

Fragile as a child

Pale just like an angel taking flight

I held her as I cried

*妈会逐渐的老去,会变得像孩子般脆弱。

妈,我想说到那时侯我也不会嫌弃你,

小时候,

是你辛苦的照顾我,没有一句怨言,

所以,到那时,是该,是该换我来照顾你了。妈。

妈,我长大了,偶尔学会了争执顶罪是我不好,

对不起。

妈,和你在一起的日子还能有多少个十年,

想到这里我开始害怕恐慌,

因为我无法想像没有你们的日子,

我希望,我们还会有很多很多的十年,

一定会的,你和爸,都会长命百岁,

因为我从小在我每次的祈祷中,都那么的祈求。=)

妈,爸,

不离不弃的会是我,

谢谢你们,真的。

在这里很想说,

我不曾对你们说出口的,

“我爱你。”